just wanna invite you to view my other blog
www.carelesswandergurl.blog.friendster.com/catch_my_disease
thank you!:)

lovelots,
-beck-

nothing.. i just want to greet myself & my batchmates at work HaPPY aNNIVERSaRY!!!!!
..grabe nakatagal tyo ng 1 taon!:)
thanks and Godbless to all of us :)

"the choice you make dictates the life you live" :)

Neon

by Sponge Cola

album: Palabas

your smile is gently freezing

snow throws it away

you're the laughter in my silence

the crow that keeps me awake

green towel less soft spoken

thoughts you never knew

the lies and empty promises

i gave them all to you

how does it feel?

how is it that i can't feel?

coz i, i need to know

coz i, i know i can never be enough

to replace your whatever

and i, i think it's shiny and blue

like a dance that see through

coz i, i know i can never be enough

to replace your whatever

now everything is silent,

everything is still without you near

everything about you

the world was something new

and i was there at the open

well just to be with you

but every time i see the shelter

every time i walk away

you're the laughter in my silence

the cold that feels my day

how does it feel?

How is it that i can't feel?

coz i, i need to know

coz i, i know I can never be enough

to replace your whatever

and i, i think it's shiny and blue

like a dance that see through

coz i, i know i can never be enough

to replace your whatever

now everything is silent,

and everything is still without you near

and every time i see you passing by

i just stand here waiting for you

and i will talk to myself

what a lazy sunday afternoon

and i'll still say that prayer for you

i'll be your everything, count on me

i'll try to be so perfect you'll see

but nothing can compare to you

whatever lies out there

there's no one here...

there's no one here...

*snif*

yahooo!!!!:) march 1st two thousand and five at around ten in the evening (actually it started around eight), i actually saw avril lavigne and some parts of simple plan's lived performance at fort bonifacio open field,taguig city manila!:) indeed it was a blessing in disguise!:)
my squishie winkie called up and invited me to join her to go to the concert because she got free tickets from her boss.:) how sweet! thanks!:) it was out of my to-do list already but guess what!hehe!:) thanks again squishie!:') it was very much appreciated..hihihi!:)
..she was cool and "honestly you promised me i never gonna saw you fake it,no,no,no..":) she did not lip sync it was real talent exposed to everyone. she has good voice (but once a while you could identify if she's exhausted or not), fine piano lessons with her and the best part and the one i truly envied about her is the way she slam the drums when simple plan did their version of "song 2" by blur.:) coolness!:)
..i guess that's about my little hangover with the bonez tour with avril and simple plan. "ang galing ninyo" rin...hehehe..'till next time!:)

lovelots,
-beck-

Heaven's New Policy

It was getting a little crowded in Heaven, so God decided to change the admittance policy. The new law was that, in order to get into Heaven, you had to have a really bad day when you died. The policy would go into effect at noon the next day. The next day at 12:01, the first person came to the gates of Heaven. The Angel at the gate, remembering the new policy, promptly said to the man, "Before I let you in, I need you to tell me how your day was going when you died."

"No problem," the man said. "I came home to my 25th floor apartment on my lunch hour and caught my wife half naked. She appeared to be having an affair, but her lover was nowhere in sight. I immediately began searching for him. My wife was yelling at me as I searched the entire apartment. Just as I was about to give up, I happened to glance out onto the balcony and noticed that there was a man hanging off the edge by his fingertips! The nerve of that guy! Well, I ran out onto the balcony and stomped on his fingers until he fell to the ground. But wouldn't you know it, he landed in some trees and bushes that broke his fall and he didn't die. This pissed me off even more. In a rage, I went back inside to get the first thing I could get my hands on to throw at him. Oddly enough, the first thing I thought of was the refrigerator. I unplugged it, pushed it out onto the balcony, and tipped it over the side. It plummeted 25 stories and crushed him! The excitement of the moment was so great that I had a heart attack and died almost instantly."

The Angel sat back and thought a moment. Technically, the guy did have a bad day. It was a crime of passion. So,the Angel announced, "Ok, sir. Welcome to the Kingdom of Heaven," and let him in.
A few seconds later the next guy came up. The Angel said, "Before I can let you in, I need to hear about what your day was like when you died."

"No problem," said the second man. "But you're not going to believe this. I was on the balcony of my 26th floor apartment doing my daily exercises. Having been under a lot of pressure I was really pushing hard to relieve my stress. I guess I got a little carried away, slipped, and accidentally fell over the side! Luckily, I was able to catch myself by the fingertips on the balcony below mine. But all of a sudden this crazy man comes running out of his apartment, started cussing, and stomps on my fingers. Well, of course I fell. I hit some trees and bushes at the bottom which broke my fall so I didn't die right away. As I'm laying there face up on the ground, unable to move, and in excruciating pain, I see this guy push his refrigerator, of all things, off the balcony. It falls the 25 floors and lands on top of me, killing me instantly."

The Angel is quietly laughing to himself as the man finishes his story. "I could get used to this new policy," he thinks to himself. "Very well," the Angel announces. "Welcome to the Kingdom of Heaven," and he lets the man enter.
A few seconds later, a third man comes up to the gate. The angel says," Please tell me how you died." The third man says,"Ok, picture this. I'm naked, hiding inside a refrigerator...."

KAPAG NAWALA KA
/ chords /( M. Valera )

Intro: Bb - C - D I. - D
Kapag nawala ka giliw
Araw ay dina sisikat
Di ko na, muling mararanasan
Dulot mo sa aking sigla

II - D
Kapag nawala ka giliw
Labis na malulumbay
Di ko na nanaisin pa
Na ako ay mabuhay

*Chorus:
Bb
Paano ang yakap
C
Paano ang halik
D
Kapag nawala ka?

III - D
Kapag nawala ka giliw
Mundo'y walang kulay
Di ko na muling masisilayan
Ang taglay mong ganda

(*)

Solo: A.

IV - Bb - C
Bb
Walang saysay ang buhay
C D
Kung sakin ay mawalay

(II) - D

(*) last 4 bars do stanza chords

hiyee!:) i'm back...i am somehow relieved but as you can see i still feel blue (just notice the color of the font!hehe)... any way, i accept the fact that everything happens for a reason and i know that there are just some things that i have to give importance that this but i am just also human to feel sadness, disappointments. well that's just about it let's close the book about that and move on!:)

..and it is that time of year again for us christians/catholics to remember the suffering and death of Jesus Christ for our own sake...but for me, this year like what had happened during christmas and new year...i won't be able to apply the usual rituals i do during holy week..it really sucks because this is the time of the year that at least we have to reflect and meditate on the things we've done and have to do specially in regards to our spiritual needs...well, this is how my parents and relatives raised me, i am not just used to still going to work during the holy week specially up to good friday till black saturday morning..well, i believe change is the only permanent in this world but is it really have to be like this in the professional world?....

i guess eventhough these things surrounds me i just have to continue living my faith and make it grow only for His great glory...(God, i'm sorry..haven't been good lately..as always..)

hiyee blog..its been so long since i last poured out my heartaches and joys on you..well i guess this is the perfect time to do it..but i won't be so much into detal now..need to do a lot of things...maybe some parts will just be continued during my lunch break..:)

you know that smiley doesn't fit here in my blog for this situation i will be sharing with you...first of all, let's just start with something to smile about..let's reminisce :) so that not all will be a bore to all of you who will be reading this...here goes...

last feb.19?..hehe, i'm not that sure any more with the date,but we had our 1st team building at puerto galera, oriental mindoro.it was fun,memorable,fine! romantic if you're with your significant other..unfortunate for me..hehe..adventurous when i first experience how to snorkle..wow,God!thanks for these wonderful creations of yours..corals,school of fishes,the sunrise and the sunset,sand,waves,moonlight..hehe..great feeling!:) ..ok,that's it...:p

next in line are the disappointments i've experienced. well, after this conversation i know i will be fine..:)

...when one of my teammates was let say in a good manner, asked to leave the premises permanently..that's it! we are not that close but in a way he showed kindness to me..when i admit sometimes i am a little bit cranky to him :p well any way,there are lots of ways to communicate and keep in touch with each other still, right?!:)

and i guess the ultimate frustration i have now (whatta line!) is the sudden cancellation of my just-about-to-start, hopefully, drum lessons with stonefree's drummer..tada!..relly mangubat..:'( ..damn, i am really sorry relly..(if u could only read this)..excitement was all over my body when you replied to my email thru a text message..i know you felt how much interested i am to the sessions you will be conducting, indeed i looked forward to it ... it doesn't matter how far your location is,even sunday is one of my rest day,i believe it would be a blast spending it with you learning the thing i always dreamed of doing and knowing..it doesn't matter if i am a girl so what?! the hell with that reason in this age and time...i understand that it could take some parts of my time into spending instead with my family but man, that's not forever just 14 sessions will do...it doesn't matter if i am not going to have my own band..what matter is the knowledge,fun and aquaintance with my other "classmates" who will be joining the sessions..just jamming with each other learning together as you said over the phone...

but i guess this is not the right time for me to experience this...with all these people and situation that hinders me to do it...well, i just want to make it happen because this kind of chances comes only once, you might open lessons like this in the future but may be the fun and excitement won't be the same as the one before it,you know what i meant right...i just want to grab this opportunity right now that its in front of me..but i guess i can not any more now we've settled it, i apologized and thank you for your patience :)
nice knowing you to...:) (oops, i'll continue it later...)

Five Candles (You Were There) :: JARS OF CLAY
A promise or a dare I would jump if I knew you'd catch me Staring over the edge I can't tell if you'll be here for me I close my eyes and make a wish Turn out the lights and take a breath Pray that when the wick is burned You would say that it's all about love [Chorus:] You were there when I needed you You were there when the skies broke wide, wide open You were there when I needed you You were there when the skies broke wide, wide open You were never here I remember you said Love was more than your good intentions Empty boxes on the floor Things I never asked you for I pray that when the wick is burned You would say that it's all about love [Chorus] I can't see the promise of Excuses you fall upon I pray to God not holding on To things you've left undone [Chorus x 2] You were there when I You were there when I You were there when I needed you

For the Jars of Clay Manila and Cebu concerts updates, please go to http://jarsofclayshowyoulove.blogspot.com/And if you have blogs or websites, can you please link that too? We need to spread the word!Thanks!

good morning! :)

obviously i'm happy today my dear 'ol bloggy..hehe...

i'm just so happy everything i wished to come is starting to shed its light on me..hahaha!:) ...i guess i'm just feeling a little bit excited about it..well i think i am over-exaggerating..did i spelled it right?;p

well the reason of my rejoicing is because of my confirmed and newly found inspiration at work....;)

every single day comes by and honestly its like dragging myself to come to work, and you know what?! next week our shift will be from 2am-11am! geez!!!! everybody's eating lunch already while us (my team mates in particular) jusat came out from work exhausted, wasted basically...
well i guess one way or another we deserve this because who else are making the stats? us of course!...well for me, it is just one of my unforgettable experiences here at work :)

...so back to my inspiration...;)

i don't know but maybe because i find him so amusing and the usual brother-like figure that i wish i have, makes me feel comfortable whenever i'm with him (as if we are always together,duh?!)
that's why i feel happy everytime i approach him to ask for assistance because i know he will be glad to assist me.:) (hihi!)
that is just one of my simple joys in life, to see him and to get a chance of talking to him.:)
...i wish our friendship will grow more than this....cause i really like him!
okay, i'm not thinking that there could be possibilities of us being u know what because that's impossible! what i'm asking is for us to be more than just co-workers, u know?!haaaaaaayyyyyyy.............

well, that's about my day dreaming...hope to see him everyday...because honestly, he is the only one whose keeping me interested to stay in here in this fucking business or corporate world dealing with these, whatever kinda persons!...hmp!

that's it!:)

lovelots,
-beck-

monday...another day at the office....honestly, i'm not that excited to go to work today....maybe because i have PMS today...hehehe...nope, maybe because of all the people to see early in my shift, why him?! shit!..he really makes my blood boils every time he talks to me...pls, i'm not in the mood to blabber around you?! can't he notice that i don't want to talk to him?! sheezz!!!!!..well, any way, apart from the eeky and hmp! things i am experiencing today, of course, i am not forgetting to look at the bright side of life, which is asking for assistance from somebody i am interrested to.:) he just looks like an older brother for me which is not bad, because that's what i long for being the eldest in the family..:( hehehe...he's so sweet and cool.thanks!:) (i guess his name is mark...) yup, we are not that close but as long as i'm here w/him in this building, i will make it a point to be nice to him..hehehe...whatever.:) wish me luck today!:) i do hope there would be no irate callers for today and no billing inquiries..plsss!!!!!:) thank you..:) God bless us all!:) rock on!:)lovelots,-beck-

a blessed and prosperous new year to all!:)

happy new year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:) my! time flies so fast and that's the end of the year 2004...my gosh?! what have i done w/in the year 2004? where am i heading? what the heck!?! i'm already firm in my decicion for this coming year. think more positive things, make the best out of what i have, and stop regreting on something in the past already...now i'm ready to welcome 2005 with a blast!!!!:D

from Jobelle Magno:

To leave the old with a burst of song,

To recall the right and forgive the wrong,

To forget the thing that binds you fast,

To the vain regrets of the year that's past;

To have the strength to let go of your hold,

Of the not worth-while of the days grown old,

To dare to go forth with a purpose true,

To the unknown task of the year that's new;

To help your sister/brother along the road,

To her/his work and lift her/his load,

To add your gift to the world's good cheer,

Is to have and to give a HAPPY NEW YEAR!

wow! christmas once again...and you know what?! this is my first christmas away from home...:( badtrip kasi may work ako...:( well somehow for me, its a nice experience that once in my life i felt the loneliness of spending christmas like this... i had the chance to look back on the days i spent w/my family and realized how much i value them and how important they are to me that even sacrificing my own happiness would be just fine for their own sake...parang ganto un na feel ko nun first time akong mag dorm?!..as in kahit gustong gusto ko nang umuwi e hindi naman pwede?!..haaay whatever drama ko nanaman...wala lang share lang mga friends..:) enjoy celebrating christmas with your loved ones (speaking of "loved ones" kainis hindi ko nabuo simbang gabi!..my wish won't come true..i guess, its really never meant for me :c)of course remember the true meaning of the season, so...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS!:)

that's all for now...

lovelots,

-beck-

COHEED AND CAMBRIA LYRICS
"A Favor House Atlantic" Your eyes tell the stories of a day you wish you could Recall the moments that once have Retrack the footsteps that brought us to this favor I wouldn't ask this of you Good eye, sniper I shoot, you run The words you scribbled on the walls With the loss of friends you didn't have I called you and the time is right Are you in or are you out? For them all to know the end of us all Run quick, they're behind us Didn't think we'd ever make it This close to safety in one piece Now you wanna kill me in the act of what could maybe Save us from sleep and what we are Good eye, sniper Now I shoot, you run The words you scribbled on the walls With the loss of friends you didn't have I called you and the time is right Are you in or are you out? For them all to know the end of us all Bye bye beautiful Don't bother to write Disturbed by your words and they're calling all cars Face step, let down. Face step, step down. The words you scribbled on the walls With the loss of friends you didn't have I called you and the time is right Are you in or are you out? For them all to know Bye bye beautiful Don't bother to write Disturbed by your words and they're calling all cars Face step, let down. Face step, step down. Bye bye beautiful Don't bother to write Disturbed by your words and they're calling all cars Face step, let down. Face step, step down. Bye bye beautiful Don't bother to write Disturbed by your words and they're calling all cars Face step, let down. Face step, step down.

THOUSAND FOOT KRUTCH LYRICS
"This Is A Call" She fooled all of her friends into thinking she's so strong, but she still sleeps with herlight on, and she acts like It's all right on, as she smiles again her mother lies there sickwith cancer, and her friends don't understand her, she's a question without answers, who feelslike falling apart. She knows, she's so much more than worthless, but she needs to find herpurpose, she wonders what she did to deserve this and..She's calling out to you, this is a call; this is a call out, ' Cause everytime I fall down, Ireach out to you, and I'm losing all control now, and my hazard signs are all out, I'm askingyou, to show me what this life is all about.He tells everyone a story, because he feels his life is boring, and he fights so you won'tignore him, because that's his biggest fear, and he cries, but you'll rarely see him do it. Heloves, but he's scared to use it. So he hides behind the music, cause he likes it that way. Heknows, He's so much more than worthless, he needs to find the surface, because he's starting toget nervous. He's calling out to you, this is a call; this is a call out, ' Cause everytime I fall down, Ireach out to you, and I'm losing all control now, and my hazard signs are all out, I'm askingyou, to show me what this life is all about.Have you ever felt this way before? 'cause I don't wanna hide here anymore. Take me to placewhere nothing's wrong and thanks for coming, shut the door. They say someone out there sees us,Well if you're real then save me Jesus, cause I've been here for far too long. I wasn't meantto feel alone.And now I'm calling out to you, this is a call; this is a call out, 'Cause everytime I falldown, I reach out to you, and I'm losing all control now, and my hazard signs are all out, I'masking you, to show me what this life is all about.Show me what this life is all aboutShow me what this life is all about

(this is the song for myself at the moment..:p) ENJOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And the winners are ...*drumroll*

Best New Artist: ORANGE AND LEMONS

Producer of the Year: SANDWICH for indie release "Thanks for the Moon's Gravitational Pull"

Best Album Packaging: NOVENA by Slapshock

Best Rock Video: ASTRO by Radioactive Sago Project

Rising Sun Award (new award): SPONGE COLA

Drummer of the Year: VIC MERCADO of Bamboo

Bassist of the Year: BUDDY ZABALA of Cambio & Twisted Halo

Guitarist of the Year: JEROME VELASCO of The Mongols

Vocalist of the Year: BAMBOO MANALAC of Bamboo

Female Rock Icon (new award): CYNTHIA ALEXANDER

In the Raw Award: THE LATE ISABEL

Hall of Fame Inductees: THE JERKS

Listener's Choice: BAMBOO

Album of the Year: INFLUENCE by Urbandub

Song of the Year: NOYPI by Bamboo

Artist of the Year: BAMBOO!!!!!!!!!! (got teary-eyed while they were performing on stage for their finale..*tears of joy*)

Dec. 26, mtv channel 41 premier night of the nu107 rock awards 2004! 9pm

see you all there on december 2,2004 at the world trade center!yeepee!!!!!!!!!!! i'm excited..i just found out that the barbs will be there..sabi ni francis brew eh..any way basta dun naman mga pambato kong sina bamboo, orange and lemons and 6cyclemind..mas astig!:) damn, with or without somebody who will accompany me, pupunta pa rin ako!!!!sssssssssshhhhhhhhhh..........:p see yah!:) ...around 6pm? gate opens at 5:30pm..;)

Keane - Somewhere Only We Know

I walked across an empty landI knew the pathway like the back of my handI felt the earth beneath my feet Sat by the river and it made me complete
Oh simple thing where have you gone I'm getting old and I need something to rely on So tell me when you're gonna let me inI'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
I came across a fallen treeI felt the branches of it looking at me Is this the place we used to love?Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?
Oh simple thing where have you gone I'm getting old and I need something to rely on So tell me when you're gonna let me in I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
And if you have a minute why don't we go Talk about it somewhere only we know? This could be the end of everything So why don't we go Somewhere only we know?
Oh simple thing where have you gone I'm getting old and I need something to rely on So tell me when you're gonna let me in I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
So if you have a minute why don't we go Talk about it somewhere only we know? This could be the end of everything So why don't we go So why don't we go
This could be the end of everything So why don't we go Somewhere only we know?

Radiation Vibe (Chris Collingwood/Adam Schlesinger) Recorded by Fountains of Wayne, 1996

Intro:

A chord w/ this riff (4x):

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--2---4---2---h4---s6---6---4---2-------
--0---0---0----0----0---0---0---0-------
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A
Are you alone now did you lose the monkey
D A
He gave you backaches and now you slouch
A
He didn't mean it he's just a dumb ape
D A
Reading Playboy on your couch
D
And now it's time to say
E
What I forgot to say
A F#m
Baby, baby, baby, C'mon what's wrong
A D E
It's a Radiation Vibe I'm groovin' on
A E D
Don't it make you wanna get some sun
E6 E E6 E E6 E
Shine on, shine on, shine on

Repeat Intro w/Shaft-style wah-wah Verse II:

I went to Pittsburgh and joined a pro team Talk about a bad dream I broke my knee But I can still croon and make the girls swoon Isn't that the way life's supposed to be And now it's time to say what I forgot to say

Chorus II:
Baby, baby, baby, C'mon what's wrong It's a Radiation Vibe I'm groovin' on Don't it make you wanna get some sun Shine on, shine on, shine on

E6 E E6 E E6 E
Shine on, shine on, shine ooooon

1/2 verse with "Doo doo doo doo" vocals

And now it's time to say what I forgot to say

Repeat chorus I and II, end on A (let it ring)

Tab/Chord interpretation by Craig Carlson
email with corrections etc: ccarlson@valsmtp.riag.com

* sowee for the inconvenience...the chords can't be put in the right position..hehe. :)

THESE DAYS

by Bamboo

these days

i seem to find

a million reasons to sit around and waste my mind

know what's being said and that's all fine

you tell me to get a life

do you understand the weight of that line?

take me for all I am

chorus:

coz I can find

my own way

big date tonight

there's no tomorrow

so let's leave it on the line

coz there's time

it's not too late

to change direction

turn your head son

so let's leave it on the line

there's something within

that's telling me that I'm just playing it too cool

i could pretty much lose everything

i never had an apple that tasted so... so sweet

given the chance, the choice

take me for all I am

(repeat chorus)

today...

i am free

free to fly

free to be what they tell me I cannot be

happy birthday to me

(repeat chorus)

is this the light at the end?

where the picture is clearer, the reception is warmer

is this the light at the end?

you're looking lot better we're happy to see ya

is this the light at the end?

you got what you came for you know where to find the door

is this the light at the end?

where the woman are hot but the beer's a lot colder

is this the light at the end?

yo momma's looking good what she doing for dinner?

is this the light at the end?

if yo momma's busy does she have a younger sister?

is this the light at the end?

you got what you came for you know where to find the door

is this the light at the end?

you know I woke up to a beautiful morning till you showed up

nauseous I was to see you standing there in my presence

but it was alright coz I'm not about to fight

when this bird wants to sing

i'll sing
gunpoint that suppose to scare me into submissiona slave to your will, fear, greed and ambition

but I'm not game...i'm not game to your flame

there's no discussion

i will fight to the end... fighter...

Anthem Of Our Dying Day

by Story Of The Year

The stars will cry
The blackest tears tonight
And this is the moment that I live for
I can smell the ocean air
And here I am
Pouring my heart onto these rooftops
Just a ghost to the world
That's exactly
Exactly what I need
From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day
For a second I wish the tide
Would swallow every inch of this city
As you gasp for air tonight
I'd scream this song right in your face
If you were hear
I swear I wont miss a beat
Cause I never
Never have before
From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day
Of our dying day
Of our dying day
Of our dying!!!
For a second I wish the tide
Would swallow every inch of this city
And you gasp for air tonight!!
From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day
From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day
From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day
Our dying day
Of our dying!!!