Friday, September 09, 2005

Perfect by ALANIS MORISSETTE

Sometimes is never quite enough If you're flawless, then you'll win my love Don't forget to win first place Don't forget to keep that smile on your face

Be a good boy Try a little harder You've got to measure up And make me prouder

How long before you screw it up How many times do I have to tell you to hurry up With everthing I do for you The least you can do is keep quiet Be a good girl You've gotta try a little harder That simply wasn't good enough To make us proud

I'll live through you I'll make you what I never was If you're the best, then maybe so am I Compared to him compared to her I'm doing this for you're own damn good You'll make up for what I bled What's the problem...why are you crying

Be a good boy Push a little farther now That wasn't fast enough To make us happy We'll love you just the way you are if you're perfect...

Saturday, July 02, 2005

i can't believe it!
i'm here at the office for the first time wasting my time doing basically nothing that has to do with my work, like blog posting!hehehe!:)
its because last june 30th, sadly our account was discontinued.. well its something that corporations have to deal with and we poor employees just have nothing else to do but obey and wait for the next account that will be given to us...
its a good thing that i am already a regular employee :)
i'm just in the waiting list and for now floating, loitering, watching tv in the pantry, chatting with friends, browsing thru the internet, texting, what else that can be done? oh, later i'll just sleep in the quiet room!:p
this situation i am going thru now in a way disheartens me, its just because that account was my first job!..i can't believe i've been with the program for a year and two months!:) in spite of the hardships i've encountered with it, the frustrations and irritating, and exciting moments i experienced with all those customers!:) --mishu guys!:*

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

i don't know why but every time its full moon whatever situation i'm in i feel happy, great!:)

there is something with the moon that makes me feel free, it uplifts my spirits in times when i'm down...

like tonight, it shines so bright, though its kinda spooky, it is so mysterious that i won't get tired starring at it the whole night...

i need that kind of space immediately.

i feel sick inside though physically i'm fine, guess its just one my weird days...

maybe that's all for now just wanted to update this forgotten spot...

thanks for all the cares and conversations i had with you :)

you know who you are :)

have a swell day everyone!:)

Saturday, June 11, 2005

Sleeps With Butterflies
-Tori Amos-
Airplanes
Take you away again
Are you flying
Above where we live
Then I look up a glare in my eyes
Are you having regrets about last night
I'm not but I like rivers that rush in
So then I dove in
Is there trouble ahead
For you the acrobat
I won't push you unless you have a net
You say the word
You know I will find you
Or if you need some time
I don't mind
I don't hold on
To the tail of your kite
I'm not like the girls that you've known
But I believe I'm worth coming home to
Kiss away night
This girl only sleeps with butterflies
With butterflies
So go on and fly then boy
Balloons
Look good from on the ground
I fear with pins and needles around
We may fall then stumble
Upon a carousel
It could take us anywhere
I'm not like the girls that you've known
But I believe I'm worth coming home to
Kiss away night
This girl only sleeps with butterflies
With butterflies
With butterflies
So go on and fly boy

Thursday, June 02, 2005

hiyyee blog...how are you?
i guess i am sober in the past few weeks or let say months i haven't talked to you...
maybe because of the things that happened to me that seems so fast and so furious! like the movie (though i haven't seen it in full, just screen shots). ----this was supposed to be posted way back june 2nd?! just going thru my posts when i noticed it..?!? (08082005)

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

Hallelujah
-Bamboo

I.anong balita sa radyo o tv, ganun parin, kumakapa sa dilim
minsa'y naisip kong umalis nalang dito
lumutang na ang lahat, lumipad, lumayo

II.bato bato sa langit, tamaan wag
magalit alam naman naten kung sino ang
tuso sa bawat sumpang umiiyak, singil ko ay piso.

sa bawat lumuluhang dukha, alay ko'y dugo.

*may kasama ka kapatid, kaibigan. hangat ako'y humihinga may pag-asa pa.

CHORUS:
hoo.. hallelu hallelujah. sinong sawa, sinong galit,sumigaw ngayong gabi,hallelu hallelujah

(RAP)
blinded by the light can't barely see
the faces in front of me,

yes we know how to begin where the scar is from within.
i'm ashamed of what i've become in the mirror,

the face of my one true enemy.
hallelujah it's a new day, let's take control.
if I have to take this message door to door,

to save myself and every soul.
with permission i'll take this for personal mission
save me from the fire, save me
from the fire, save me from the fire.

III.ngayong gabi ako ang sundalo mo,

habang ika'y tulog ako'y gising naka bantay sayo
kasi mahal kita, tignan mo,
pag-ibig ko sayo lamang.
(repeat * and chorus)


sinong sawa, sinong galit, sumigaw ngayong gabi,
hallelu hallelujah
hoo.. hallelu hallelujah <2x>

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

panis na pero i just want you to know succesful ang gig sa glorietta ng spongecola nun 050505! with sugarfree astig! and of course, my love band as well Hale!:) success kasi nakapagpasign nako ng CD sa spongecola at last! bait mo Gosh! sya kasi ng pass ng CD ko kina Yael at Chris! i love you chris astig mong mag drums!grabe pili lang nagugustuhan kong magdrums at isa ka na dun!!!!!WWWAAAHHHH!!!!!!kahit dami tao siksik pa rin ako grabe dugyot na ko bago pa pumasok sa office pro oks lang just for them to sign my CD. and my freebie pa si neil the massage boy almighty ng 99.5 rt, na meet ko na rin in person!:) grabe! gulat sya nun nakita nya ko kala ko di na nya ko alala, sabi ko "beck caspillo" still remember me? kasi tagal na namin magkakilala pro thru text lang tska thru my friend mico nun ininterview nya sya as a birthday gift..hehehe..kilig!:) saya-saya! complete talaga araw ko nun!:) bangag ako kasi wala ako tulog pro oks lang! sulit grabe!!!!wwwwwaaaaaaahhhhh!!!!hehe..saya pag naaalala ko..love u guys!!!!!hehehe!:) sa uulitin..neil hindi ko pa sure makakapunta ko sa event ng RT may pasok kahiya umabsent mababa stats namin ngayon eh..next time promise!:) mishu as in kapal ng mukha kong sabihin un in your face e totoo naman e..hehehe.,..my gosh!!!!!! sige log in nako till next time!!!!!ROCK ON!!!!!:)

Monday, May 02, 2005

may second of two thousand and five, our poor whitey passed away. he was our dog for a long time at my grandmother's house in canlubang. this morning my lola called in to give the news but when my papa went there whitey officially died at around 1pm. actually he was already brownish not because he hadn't taken a bath for years but that was his fur's color, well we named him whitey because when he was a pup he was indeed in color white with brown colored feet that seems like his boots..hehe..well this may sound boring may be because you didn't even meet that dog and you can't relate to all the things i've experienced with that dog. somehow he was my confidante during my stay there in canlubang. i share stories with him i play with him when my brothers or cousins are not around and eventhough sometimes i torture or let's say plays trick on him that good 'ol dog was so patient and obedient to all i say, he knows who his "amo" is..hehehe..that's what i like about him, he was always there to listen to my senseless ideas or thoughts, a best friend indeed.:') now i miss that doggie..

i suddenly remembered my first ever and favorite dog "tisoy". he was like doggie but more accommodating and more intelligent, they say "turuan yan noh?" but no, we just talk to him like he was part of the family well yes he was,may be that's why he can easily grasps what we want him to do. maybe i was already 5 yrs old then when we had him as a puppie and he lived until i was around 5th grade or 6th..i can't remember..what i just remember are the moments spent with him,he was my buddy!:) the common thing between whitey and tisoy is their being "seloso" to other puppies they get sick whenever there is a new pup and if ever that pup didn't survive and dies they get well again..hehe..weirdos..:p

well at least they're in doggie heaven now..hope me too.. (well not in doggie heaven but with the real heaven for people...how will you know if you are already there and if it is the real thing? what do you think will it look like?)

today i caught a glimpse of zoolander in HBO again and i love this song from that movie hope you will like it too even just reading thru the lyrics..haay that's all for today..eventhough my day hasn't started yet...dang..my shift starts at 1am..well just have a swell day!:)

Title: He Ain't Heavy, He's My Brother
Artist: Rufus Wainwright

The road is long with many a winding turn That leads us to who knows where Who knows where, who know where But I'm strong, strong enough to carry him He ain't heavy, he's my brother

So on we go, his welfare is of my concern No burden is he to bear, we'll get there For I know, he would not encumber me He ain't heavy, he's my brother
If I'm laden at all, I'm laden with sadness That everyone's heart isn't filled with gladness Of love for one another


It's a long, long road from which there is no return While we're on our way to there, why not share And the load doesn't weigh me down at all He ain't heavy, he's my brother

He's my brother He ain't heavy He's my brother He ain't heavy He's my brother

Saturday, April 30, 2005

just wanna invite you to view my other blog
www.carelesswandergurl.blog.friendster.com/catch_my_disease
thank you!:)

lovelots,
-beck-

Tuesday, April 19, 2005

nothing.. i just want to greet myself & my batchmates at work HaPPY aNNIVERSaRY!!!!!
..grabe nakatagal tyo ng 1 taon!:)
thanks and Godbless to all of us :)

"the choice you make dictates the life you live" :)

Friday, April 08, 2005

Neon
by Sponge Cola
album: Palabas
your smile is gently freezing
snow throws it away
you're the laughter in my silence
the crow that keeps me awake
green towel less soft spoken
thoughts you never knew
the lies and empty promises
i gave them all to you

how does it feel?
how is it that i can't feel?
coz i, i need to know

coz i, i know i can never be enough
to replace your whatever
and i, i think it's shiny and blue
like a dance that see through
coz i, i know i can never be enough
to replace your whatever
now everything is silent,
everything is still without you near

everything about you
the world was something new
and i was there at the open
well just to be with you
but every time i see the shelter
every time i walk away
you're the laughter in my silence
the cold that feels my day

how does it feel?
How is it that i can't feel?
coz i, i need to know

coz i, i know I can never be enough
to replace your whatever
and i, i think it's shiny and blue
like a dance that see through
coz i, i know i can never be enough
to replace your whatever
now everything is silent,
and everything is still without you near

and every time i see you passing by
i just stand here waiting for you
and i will talk to myself
what a lazy sunday afternoon
and i'll still say that prayer for you
i'll be your everything, count on me
i'll try to be so perfect you'll see
but nothing can compare to you
whatever lies out there

there's no one here...
there's no one here...
*snif*

Friday, April 01, 2005

yahooo!!!!:) march 1st two thousand and five at around ten in the evening (actually it started around eight), i actually saw avril lavigne and some parts of simple plan's lived performance at fort bonifacio open field,taguig city manila!:) indeed it was a blessing in disguise!:)
my squishie winkie called up and invited me to join her to go to the concert because she got free tickets from her boss.:) how sweet! thanks!:) it was out of my to-do list already but guess what!hehe!:) thanks again squishie!:') it was very much appreciated..hihihi!:)
..she was cool and "honestly you promised me i never gonna saw you fake it,no,no,no..":) she did not lip sync it was real talent exposed to everyone. she has good voice (but once a while you could identify if she's exhausted or not), fine piano lessons with her and the best part and the one i truly envied about her is the way she slam the drums when simple plan did their version of "song 2" by blur.:) coolness!:)
..i guess that's about my little hangover with the bonez tour with avril and simple plan. "ang galing ninyo" rin...hehehe..'till next time!:)

lovelots,
-beck-

Thursday, March 24, 2005

Heaven's New Policy

It was getting a little crowded in Heaven, so God decided to change the admittance policy. The new law was that, in order to get into Heaven, you had to have a really bad day when you died. The policy would go into effect at noon the next day. The next day at 12:01, the first person came to the gates of Heaven. The Angel at the gate, remembering the new policy, promptly said to the man, "Before I let you in, I need you to tell me how your day was going when you died."

"No problem," the man said. "I came home to my 25th floor apartment on my lunch hour and caught my wife half naked. She appeared to be having an affair, but her lover was nowhere in sight. I immediately began searching for him. My wife was yelling at me as I searched the entire apartment. Just as I was about to give up, I happened to glance out onto the balcony and noticed that there was a man hanging off the edge by his fingertips! The nerve of that guy! Well, I ran out onto the balcony and stomped on his fingers until he fell to the ground. But wouldn't you know it, he landed in some trees and bushes that broke his fall and he didn't die. This pissed me off even more. In a rage, I went back inside to get the first thing I could get my hands on to throw at him. Oddly enough, the first thing I thought of was the refrigerator. I unplugged it, pushed it out onto the balcony, and tipped it over the side. It plummeted 25 stories and crushed him! The excitement of the moment was so great that I had a heart attack and died almost instantly."

The Angel sat back and thought a moment. Technically, the guy did have a bad day. It was a crime of passion. So,the Angel announced, "Ok, sir. Welcome to the Kingdom of Heaven," and let him in.
A few seconds later the next guy came up. The Angel said, "Before I can let you in, I need to hear about what your day was like when you died."


"No problem," said the second man. "But you're not going to believe this. I was on the balcony of my 26th floor apartment doing my daily exercises. Having been under a lot of pressure I was really pushing hard to relieve my stress. I guess I got a little carried away, slipped, and accidentally fell over the side! Luckily, I was able to catch myself by the fingertips on the balcony below mine. But all of a sudden this crazy man comes running out of his apartment, started cussing, and stomps on my fingers. Well, of course I fell. I hit some trees and bushes at the bottom which broke my fall so I didn't die right away. As I'm laying there face up on the ground, unable to move, and in excruciating pain, I see this guy push his refrigerator, of all things, off the balcony. It falls the 25 floors and lands on top of me, killing me instantly."

The Angel is quietly laughing to himself as the man finishes his story. "I could get used to this new policy," he thinks to himself. "Very well," the Angel announces. "Welcome to the Kingdom of Heaven," and he lets the man enter.
A few seconds later, a third man comes up to the gate. The angel says," Please tell me how you died." The third man says,"Ok, picture this. I'm naked, hiding inside a refrigerator...."

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

KAPAG NAWALA KA
/ chords /( M. Valera )

Intro: Bb - C - D I. - D
Kapag nawala ka giliw
Araw ay dina sisikat
Di ko na, muling mararanasan
Dulot mo sa aking sigla

II - D
Kapag nawala ka giliw
Labis na malulumbay
Di ko na nanaisin pa
Na ako ay mabuhay

*Chorus:
Bb
Paano ang yakap
C
Paano ang halik
D
Kapag nawala ka?

III - D
Kapag nawala ka giliw
Mundo'y walang kulay
Di ko na muling masisilayan
Ang taglay mong ganda

(*)

Solo: A.

IV - Bb - C
Bb
Walang saysay ang buhay
C D
Kung sakin ay mawalay

(II) - D

(*) last 4 bars do stanza chords

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

hiyee!:) i'm back...i am somehow relieved but as you can see i still feel blue (just notice the color of the font!hehe)... any way, i accept the fact that everything happens for a reason and i know that there are just some things that i have to give importance that this but i am just also human to feel sadness, disappointments. well that's just about it let's close the book about that and move on!:)

..and it is that time of year again for us christians/catholics to remember the suffering and death of Jesus Christ for our own sake...but for me, this year like what had happened during christmas and new year...i won't be able to apply the usual rituals i do during holy week..it really sucks because this is the time of the year that at least we have to reflect and meditate on the things we've done and have to do specially in regards to our spiritual needs...well, this is how my parents and relatives raised me, i am not just used to still going to work during the holy week specially up to good friday till black saturday morning..well, i believe change is the only permanent in this world but is it really have to be like this in the professional world?....

i guess eventhough these things surrounds me i just have to continue living my faith and make it grow only for His great glory...(God, i'm sorry..haven't been good lately..as always..)

Monday, March 21, 2005

hiyee blog..its been so long since i last poured out my heartaches and joys on you..well i guess this is the perfect time to do it..but i won't be so much into detal now..need to do a lot of things...maybe some parts will just be continued during my lunch break..:)

you know that smiley doesn't fit here in my blog for this situation i will be sharing with you...first of all, let's just start with something to smile about..let's reminisce :) so that not all will be a bore to all of you who will be reading this...here goes...

last feb.19?..hehe, i'm not that sure any more with the date,but we had our 1st team building at puerto galera, oriental mindoro.it was fun,memorable,fine! romantic if you're with your significant other..unfortunate for me..hehe..adventurous when i first experience how to snorkle..wow,God!thanks for these wonderful creations of yours..corals,school of fishes,the sunrise and the sunset,sand,waves,moonlight..hehe..great feeling!:) ..ok,that's it...:p

next in line are the disappointments i've experienced. well, after this conversation i know i will be fine..:)

...when one of my teammates was let say in a good manner, asked to leave the premises permanently..that's it! we are not that close but in a way he showed kindness to me..when i admit sometimes i am a little bit cranky to him :p well any way,there are lots of ways to communicate and keep in touch with each other still, right?!:)

and i guess the ultimate frustration i have now (whatta line!) is the sudden cancellation of my just-about-to-start, hopefully, drum lessons with stonefree's drummer..tada!..relly mangubat..:'( ..damn, i am really sorry relly..(if u could only read this)..excitement was all over my body when you replied to my email thru a text message..i know you felt how much interested i am to the sessions you will be conducting, indeed i looked forward to it ... it doesn't matter how far your location is,even sunday is one of my rest day,i believe it would be a blast spending it with you learning the thing i always dreamed of doing and knowing..it doesn't matter if i am a girl so what?! the hell with that reason in this age and time...i understand that it could take some parts of my time into spending instead with my family but man, that's not forever just 14 sessions will do...it doesn't matter if i am not going to have my own band..what matter is the knowledge,fun and aquaintance with my other "classmates" who will be joining the sessions..just jamming with each other learning together as you said over the phone...

but i guess this is not the right time for me to experience this...with all these people and situation that hinders me to do it...well, i just want to make it happen because this kind of chances comes only once, you might open lessons like this in the future but may be the fun and excitement won't be the same as the one before it,you know what i meant right...i just want to grab this opportunity right now that its in front of me..but i guess i can not any more now we've settled it, i apologized and thank you for your patience :)
nice knowing you to...:) (oops, i'll continue it later...)

Friday, January 28, 2005

Five Candles (You Were There) :: JARS OF CLAY
A promise or a dare I would jump if I knew you'd catch me Staring over the edge I can't tell if you'll be here for me I close my eyes and make a wish Turn out the lights and take a breath Pray that when the wick is burned You would say that it's all about love [Chorus:] You were there when I needed you You were there when the skies broke wide, wide open You were there when I needed you You were there when the skies broke wide, wide open You were never here I remember you said Love was more than your good intentions Empty boxes on the floor Things I never asked you for I pray that when the wick is burned You would say that it's all about love [Chorus] I can't see the promise of Excuses you fall upon I pray to God not holding on To things you've left undone [Chorus x 2] You were there when I You were there when I You were there when I needed you


For the Jars of Clay Manila and Cebu concerts updates, please go to http://jarsofclayshowyoulove.blogspot.com/And if you have blogs or websites, can you please link that too? We need to spread the word!Thanks!

Saturday, January 22, 2005

good morning! :)

obviously i'm happy today my dear 'ol bloggy..hehe...

i'm just so happy everything i wished to come is starting to shed its light on me..hahaha!:) ...i guess i'm just feeling a little bit excited about it..well i think i am over-exaggerating..did i spelled it right?;p

well the reason of my rejoicing is because of my confirmed and newly found inspiration at work....;)

every single day comes by and honestly its like dragging myself to come to work, and you know what?! next week our shift will be from 2am-11am! geez!!!! everybody's eating lunch already while us (my team mates in particular) jusat came out from work exhausted, wasted basically...
well i guess one way or another we deserve this because who else are making the stats? us of course!...well for me, it is just one of my unforgettable experiences here at work :)

...so back to my inspiration...;)

i don't know but maybe because i find him so amusing and the usual brother-like figure that i wish i have, makes me feel comfortable whenever i'm with him (as if we are always together,duh?!)
that's why i feel happy everytime i approach him to ask for assistance because i know he will be glad to assist me.:) (hihi!)
that is just one of my simple joys in life, to see him and to get a chance of talking to him.:)
...i wish our friendship will grow more than this....cause i really like him!
okay, i'm not thinking that there could be possibilities of us being u know what because that's impossible! what i'm asking is for us to be more than just co-workers, u know?!haaaaaaayyyyyyy.............

well, that's about my day dreaming...hope to see him everyday...because honestly, he is the only one whose keeping me interested to stay in here in this fucking business or corporate world dealing with these, whatever kinda persons!...hmp!

that's it!:)

lovelots,
-beck-

Monday, January 17, 2005

monday...another day at the office....honestly, i'm not that excited to go to work today....maybe because i have PMS today...hehehe...nope, maybe because of all the people to see early in my shift, why him?! shit!..he really makes my blood boils every time he talks to me...pls, i'm not in the mood to blabber around you?! can't he notice that i don't want to talk to him?! sheezz!!!!!..well, any way, apart from the eeky and hmp! things i am experiencing today, of course, i am not forgetting to look at the bright side of life, which is asking for assistance from somebody i am interrested to.:) he just looks like an older brother for me which is not bad, because that's what i long for being the eldest in the family..:( hehehe...he's so sweet and cool.thanks!:) (i guess his name is mark...) yup, we are not that close but as long as i'm here w/him in this building, i will make it a point to be nice to him..hehehe...whatever.:) wish me luck today!:) i do hope there would be no irate callers for today and no billing inquiries..plsss!!!!!:) thank you..:) God bless us all!:) rock on!:)lovelots,-beck-

Saturday, January 01, 2005

a blessed and prosperous new year to all!:)

happy new year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:) my! time flies so fast and that's the end of the year 2004...my gosh?! what have i done w/in the year 2004? where am i heading? what the heck!?! i'm already firm in my decicion for this coming year. think more positive things, make the best out of what i have, and stop regreting on something in the past already...now i'm ready to welcome 2005 with a blast!!!!:D

from Jobelle Magno:

To leave the old with a burst of song,
To recall the right and forgive the wrong,
To forget the thing that binds you fast,
To the vain regrets of the year that's past;
To have the strength to let go of your hold,
Of the not worth-while of the days grown old,
To dare to go forth with a purpose true,
To the unknown task of the year that's new;
To help your sister/brother along the road,
To her/his work and lift her/his load,
To add your gift to the world's good cheer,
Is to have and to give a HAPPY NEW YEAR!