sharing time!Ü this article is not about me..but honestly, i can relate with it so much!hehehe..just enjoy reading!Ü

hi! its been 4 months since i saw him and
talagang namimiss ko na siya... pero what can i
do? it seems that i have loved the wrong
person.... but still the pain keeps on hurting
me and kung walang magbibigay ng gamot
para dito sa nararamdaman ko.... baka mamatay na
ako....

to give you a background about my life,
everthing seems to be fine except dun sa
time na dumating na sa buhay ko yung
hinayupak na lalake na yon.... hehehehe....
kung curious kayo about dun sa guy...
bestfriend ko po yon kaso lang iba na
ang nangyari as time passes by.....

classmate ko sya nung highschool. pards pa nga
ang tawagan namen.... o db ang sweet? di na ako
iba sa kanya and ganon na ren sya sa aken....
kung di nga lang ako naging babae baka naiuwi na
ako nun sa bahay nila and baka lahat ng gawaing
pang brusko eh ipagawa na nun sa ken eh.....
pero
cyempre mukha pa ren naman akong babae noh!!


highskul cyempre may prom.... wala cyang date,
wla ren ako.... i know that he wanted to invite
me to be his date pero ang ogag nga kasi nun
kaya the last minute tsaka lang sya nag-ask.
he went to our house... nakamotor po sya and
medyo pawisan pero infairness....
mabango pa ren....

he ask my permission to see my dress for the
prom.... cyempre para maloka sya sa aken at may
konting surprise... i refuse.... o sige, medyo
na frustrate sya pero hindi yon nagging
hadlang para invite nya ko....
sa ganda ko na to..... cyempre
ang dami munang pa-echeng.... hanggang sa
tanungin nya ako kung may date na ba me.... e

kung di ba naman siya abnormal eh.... papayag ba
akong makipagdate sa iba eh sya lang ang gusto
ko.... lam mo yon... sarap sampalin.... so in
short, papilit pa ba ako? syempre.....

the night of my life came, i was so pretty sabi
ng nang-uuto kong nanay... pero naniwala lang
ako nang sya na ang nagsabi....
blush ako ever....
kahit alam kong maganda ako since birth
(hehehehe)
iba pa ren yung sa kanya galing diba?

we enjoyed that night and lalo ko lang
napatunayan sa sarili ko na mahal ko na pala ang
hinayupak na bestfrend ko......

syempre ano pa ba ang sunod na event sa prom
kundi ang graduation na db? the night before the
graduation, we talked on the phone na para bang
it would be the last time na maririnig namen ang
boses ng isat-isa..... i’ve waited for the
moment
na mabanggit nya na may feelings din sya and
hindi naman ako nagkamali.... tinanong nya ako
kung may possibility daw na maging kame.... i
know na maiinis kayo sa ken dahil alam nyo ba
ang sagot ko?
ah, eh.... hindi pwede kase bestfrends
tayo eh.... yung mga anak na lang naten yung
ipag- partner naten....
sa isip-isip ko.... ang tanga!
pano ko nasabi ang ganong words? pero wala na
akong magagawa..... alam namang bawiin ko pa eh
di nahuli naman ako db? pero ang
tanga ko
talga....

cyempre college na.... im so proud to say na
napunta naman ako sa magandang school and take
note... pareho kame ng skul..... ano to?
kailangan bang ituloy ang naudlot na
pagmamahalan namen?.... hehehe....

nagkaboyfriend ako for a year and a
half....
minahal ko sya pero there are these conflicts
and problems na di na kayang ayusin....
in short.... nagbreak kame.....

i guess God meant that to happen kasi yon din
yung time na nagkita kame ng bestfrend ko.....
sa sobrang miss namen ang isa't-isa....
sabay na kameng umuwi, kumain, pumasok.....
im happy pero parang lalo ko lang
pinahirapan ang sarili ko
dahil my feelings for that guy grows each and
everytime that we are together... buti na lang
magaling akong magtago at magpigil....
hehehe.... bilib kayo noh?.....

one morning, im so busy preparing my project
that would be pass on that same
day....
alam kong dumating na sya at nasa likuran ko
na ang mokong pero dahil sobrang pressure
sa project.... gusto ko man syang dambahan...
cyempre mamayang gabi na lang di ba?
hehehe.... di ko sya masyadong napansin.....

may inabot syang sulat sa aken and he asked if i
could join him sa lunch.... i said yes.... then,
alis na cya.... alam naman kc nyang im busy.....

when i was about to enter the room, somebody
bumped me and my precious project fell... gusto
ko mang magalet... what can i do db? instead i
ask my prof to give me another chance to do my
project.... naalala ko si mokong.... the lunch
date.... kinuha ko ang cell ko to text him that
i cant come to our meeting.... e kaso.... pag
tinamaan k nga naman ng malas.... check operator
service daw.... i tried to look for friends or
other kakilala pero malas that day talaga....

and so i took my lunch all by my self....
naalala ko yung letter.... hinanap ko sa bag...
WALA!!!! bumalik me sa corridor praying na
andon pa yung sulat.... wala ren....
God! why? minsan lang magbigay ng sulat yon....
nawala pa.... dont know
how to tell him about the letter....

and so days and weeks passed, pag nagkikita
kame... di nya ako pinapansin... ako, i tried to
talk to him pero alam kong may kasalanan ako
pero ganon ba kalaki ang nagawa kong
di
pagpunta at ganon na lang ang iwas nya?...
sige... hinayaan ko na lang....

months na ang binilang... i heard that he was
dating a girl from the same school that we are
in... masakit.... na sa iba ko pa narinig na
sila na.... mas masakit na wala na akong
halaga sa kanya.....

basta... ilang araw din yon na ganon ang
nararamdaman ko.... weeks.... months....

gagraduate na po ako.... i wonder what's instore
for me in my last day in school.... and so i
thought na puntahan yung favorite hang out
namen.... when i was about to get near the

place.... i saw him... with the girl.... umiiyak
ang bruha but i cant hear what they are talking
about.... so i’ve decided to get out of that
place before my tears burst out....
and then a common friend ang sumalubong sa
aken.... saying na buntis ang girl....
syempre.... durog na durog ang puso ko....
kung kaya nyo lang ma-imagine yung

naramdaman ko.....

the night of that same day.... naloka ang lola
nyo.... nagparamdam ang mokong pagkaraan ng
pagkatagal-tagal na panahon... i thought it was
something good for me... for us.... pero i was
wrong.... so wrong..... he gave me a wedding
invitation and isa ako sa bridesmaids..... the
girl... she was waiting in the car.... o db?
dati motor lang ngaun... car na....

and so the wedding came.... maganda po ako
nun.... sabi ng nanay ko..
pero wala ng nagsecond the motion eh....
so naniwala na lang ako sa nanay ko....
then, there was this professor who
came to see me.... he handed over a letter with

my name carefully printed on the enveloped....
he said that he looked for the owner of
that letter kaso lang po malaki po ang skul
namin kaya mahirap magkahanapan db?
and so nung nakita nya ang name ko sa
invitation, he decided to bring
the letter thinking that it could save souls...
daw....

and so i was about to open the letter when the
priest ask kung sino daw ang tututol... dedma
ako.... alam namang manggulo pa ko noh....

binasa ko na ang letter..... nakakatouch po
talaga.... he opened up his feelings for me....
hoping na meron din daw akong feelings for

him.... he ask that if i will show up to our
hang - out the next day after he gave his
letter, then it means that i also have
feelings for him and that he would love me
for the rest of our lives.... but if i
wont.... then he will never open that topic
again.... he pleaded to me na sana
pumunta ako......

if only i have that letter.... if only i knew
about it.... kung di lang ako clumsy and carelss
to keep that letter... things would be
diffrent.... if only.....

and so i heard the priest announced the couple
as husband and wife.... ang sakit......

picture taking..... gusto mang sumabog ng
nararamdaman ko.... as you know.... magaling
akong magpigil.... pero masakit po talaga....
sobra......

after the picture taking...... niyakap ako ng
bestfrend ko.... ang higpit.... and teary eyed
nyang cnabi na....




i still love you.....

Shattered Hope By Silverio F. Aquino
>
> I AM now 75. I have a wife and six children and two truckloads of
> grandchildren, but my family has been breaking up because of the
>failures
> of our government. All this makes my blood pressure shoot up. I
think
>many
> senior citizens are in the same situation.
>
> I know whereof I speak because I have lived through the
administrations
>of
> Quezon, Osmena, Roxas, Quirino, Magsaysay, Garcia and Macapagal,
and
>life
> under them was good. I was a boy during Quezon's time and I know
little
>of
> Osmeña's rule, but I know they were good and dedicated leaders.
During
>the
> administrations of Roxas through Macapagal, I got an education, got
> married, had children and educated them in turn. The government
under
>them
> was also good.
>
> Then came Marcos. At first the people responded well to his
> exhortation: "Sa ikauunlad ng bayan, disiplina ang kailangan (For
the
> nation to progress, discipline is needed)." But he turned out to be
a
> dictator. He killed or imprisoned his political enemies, stole
money in
>the
> billions of pesos, and repressed the people's freedoms.
>
> One day my youngest daughter, who had just finished her course at
the
> University of the Philippines announced, "My future has been ruined
by
> Marcos. I want to leave."
>
> I was dumbfounded, but I knew she was right. She went abroad.
>
> Then my eldest son, an electrical engineer, followed her. I
terribly
>missed
> them, and I blamed the government for taking away their hope for a
>bright
> future in their own country.
>
> Upon the petition of my eldest son, now a citizen of another
country, my
> wife and I were granted immigrant visas so we could live in that
>country. I
> did not go, but my wife went to live with my children there, so now
we
>only
> visit each other. She, too, was disillusioned with our leaders. Her
>leaving
> was to me the unkindest cut of all.
>
> Marcos was thrown out of power, and was succeeded by the widow of
his
> foremost victim and later by a former army general. But my four
children
> remained skeptical about the future.
>
> Tragedy struck when a movie actor was elected president. Then he
was
> charged with plunder and detained without bail.
>
> I watched what my four remaining children would do. True enough,
two of
> them soon gave up and left I could not believe they would go, since
they
> had studied in good universities, they had decent houses, drove
cars and
> lived in relative comfort. But they left because they saw no hope
here
> especially for their own children.
>
> Now I have only two children left with me. They are also jumping
ship
> because they do not see any good reason for staying. Sadly I know
they
>are
> just waiting for me to go to my final destination, and they may
have
>only a
> few years to wait.
>
> A recent survey found that about 20 percent of Filipinos want to
leave
>the
> country. Many families really want to go abroad for good. One
Inquirer
> columnist said it all for them when he wrote, "For the first time
in my
> life last week, I really felt that this country has become
hopeless."
>
> Like my four children who have gone, many people are convinced this
>country
> is hopeless and wish they had the opportunity to move elsewhere
with
>their
> families.
>
> Countless Filipinos have chosen another way to leave, which is by
>finding
> work abroad. If they could, they would uproot their families. But
they
>are
> forced to leave behind their spouses, children and parents in order
to
>take
> foreign jobs, mostly menial and below their level of education, and
they
> and their loved ones must suffer the pains of separation and
> loneliness. While the government is happy for the millions of
dollars
>that
> they send home to prop up the economy, it does nothing to address
the
> reason why, like the emigrants, these overseas Filipino workers
have to
>go
> abroad in the first place.
>
> There is also the big brain drain that the government does not seem
to
>care
> about. Educated and talented Filipinos go to live abroad and apply
their
> expertise and knowledge to their foreign jobs. The exodus of
doctors,
> nurses, engineers and technicians goes unabated, but the government
is
>not
> bothered by this waste of talent.
>
> Why do Filipinos go away? First of all, there is so much corruption
> everywhere in the government. A world opinion survey has revealed
that
>our
> country is the third most corrupt in Asia and the 11th most corrupt
in
>the
> world.
>
> There is also too much politics. The finance secretary has said
that
> politics is the cause of our dire economic problems.
>
> But who is engaged in too much politics? Why, the politicians, of
> course. There are too many of them in and outside Congress. They
are
> concerned only about their personal ambitions and their expensive
>junkets
> and their abuse of their pork barrel and other perks. Gone are the
days
>of
> Recto, Laurel, Diokno, Osias and House Speakers Cornelio Villareal
and
> Eugenio Perez, of Ramon Magsaysay, and of justices like Concepcion,
>Moran,
> and Avanceña.
>
> Many politicians give speeches about poverty, joblessness, crime
and
>other
> ills, but do very little, if at all, to address these problems.
Instead,
> they resort to what is expedient or good for themselves. Look at
the
> shameless speed with which congressmen have railroaded the
impeachment
> charges against the Chief Justice and how some senators are
thirsting
>for
> the publicity they will get as judges during
>
> the impeachment. Look also at how fast many politicians have risen
to
> defend the Chief Justice without ascertaining that he is really
innocent
>in
> his handling of the Judiciary Development Fund amounting to
billions of
>pesos.
>
> The people are now cynical of this government. Even Filipinos
abroad
>share
> this cynicism, as shown by the fact that only one out of every 100
of
>them
> has bothered to register under the new Absentee Voting Law. Like my
wife
> and children abroad, they do not trust the government enough to
>participate
> by voting. The common lament is, why vote when the same kind of
>so-called
> leaders will get elected anyway, by hook or by crook?
>
> Now, I am horrified to learn that another movie actor, who has
>reportedly
> not finished high school, will be elected president in 2004.
>
> When my last two remaining children leave because this country is
>hopeless,
> my family would be completely shattered and, if I would still be
alive,
>my
> hope in the government will also be completely lost. This would be
>tragic
> for me. I have seen better governance from the likes of Laurel,
Recto,
> and Magsaysay, and I will never see the light of hope in this
hopeless
> country.
>
> Silverio F. Aquino, 75, is a lawyer.
>
>
>
> IF YOU TOO FEEL A SENSE OF HOPELESSNESS ABOUT OUR COUNTRY BECAUSE
OF THE
> LIKELIHOOD OF ANOTHER MOVIE ACTOR/HIGH SCHOOL DROPOUT BECOMING
PRESIDENT
>OF
> THE PHILIPPINES IN 2004, PLS PASS THIS ON AS A FORM OF ELECTRONIC
>PROTEST!!
>
>
>
> NO TO FPJ!!!! pls.
>
> FILIPINOS.... THINK!!!!!!!!!