After attending a free training under Filipina Homebased Moms last night, I wanted to get started and applied what I have learned so I can land to my online work as soon as possible.
I started getting my resume edited with Canva and I signed up under Trello. I had a stint working from home in 2015 as an online English tutor for Japanese. Here was my video introduction at that time: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bAjKp7T5xj4
After numerous attempts to change my career from a graveyard shift into a day shift, I finally decided that I can better perform if I dedicate my time working from home so I can be with my son. Although he is 11 years old, a lot of things happened (kindly back read from my previous posts to have a better understanding) and I can sense that he is still trying to befit with his environment. He is still a child for me and I honestly spent less time monitoring his studies and school activities recently.
While organizing my profiles and documents, I decided to lay down at around 11 PM. I told myself,
" I will just rest my eyes and straighten my back, then I will go back finishing my applications."
But what do you expect, I went to wonderland together with my son who snores fast asleep beside me. But the ambiance and feeling is so familiar as if I am wide awake. It feels like an old movie waiting for the next sequence.
I know I am in the province because of the number of trees at the backyard, definitely this is not our apartment in the city.
The house is old and gloomy although it is not that dark outside. I am suspecting that we are at my parents' house but I don't remember having wooden flooring. Maybe this was the scenario because before my son and I went to sleep, he requested if we can visit his grandparents in Laguna since February 5 is Chinese New Year which means holiday and no school day.
For the longest time, I have never dreamed of something that my husband was in it. When I dream,
I usually see my son, mother, former classmates and previous officemates. But now he was there, he seemed tired from a day's work. The setup of the house has a second floor because when my husband came home, I was looking down at him while he climbed up the stairs.
Here at our apartment, we don't have a frame for the bed and like Korean/Japanese style, we have mats and foam as our bed. But in the dream there are no foams to lay down to and just hard mats laid on the floor with our thin blankets and I don't even remember having pillows. (Old school province life it was!)
We had an argument last night before he went to work so maybe the feeling lingers to me that even during the dream I feel irritated by him that I don't want to go near him at all. As usual, he invited me to go to sleep and embraced me while we lay down to sleep.
Then suddenly the mood became scary and if you can remember the mask of the vendetta, someone who was wearing that mask or it seems like the mask of the vendetta was his actual face entered the room in a lateral flying position towards me like attacking me with his "superman-like" fist-flying position?!? I sense that someone is a different entity and I was so afraid and my heart was pounding so hard because everything was sudden while my husband already fallen a sleep.
My initial reaction was to block that entity while pushing it away from me cause I felt that a touch from it would kill me. Then I shouted, "No matter what you do, Jesus is still powerful than you!"
Then I woke up.
My head was aching of too much sleep but it was only midnight. I am shaking while I do the sign of the cross and prayed repeatedly until I went back to sleep.
I kept on waking up every hour with a throbbing head until I heard the alarm buzzing at 4:30AM.
I don't usually dream of supernatural things but when I do I always have to face these monsters or demons and it feels like real.
Whatever my dream meant, it only means that I need to have more time with God and to truly change my perspective positively. Challenging times will be always there and I can win it if I courageously face it, cut the slack and persevere more, declutter my mind and home and take care of myself as well. While I do my responsibilities as a mom and wife, I believe that everything will also follow in terms of my career as a WAHM. In due time. :)
