Good bye, Chester. :'(

What did I do today to deserve this?

I was browsing online to learn about the new account I will receive an interview for today.
Since the main office is based in Arizona, I searched more about Arizona through Wikipedia.
While reading, I came across a county called Cochise and automatically remembered the song of Audioslave.

A lot of issues and speculations are published online about Chris Cornell's passing and honestly, it will always be sad to know that a unique voice and person will never come back no matter what the findings are or whatever the truth is about his death.
All I can do is to reminisce about his past performances and have a final look at his funeral through YouTube.

Indeed, it was star-studded. It was supposed to. We lost a Rock Icon. It was heartfelt from the fans' point of view and from the family and friends in the industry.
And Chester Bennington was there. Although the audio was faint, you can still hear his voice singing Hallelujah. The truthfulness of his voice dedicated to Chris Cornell.

Today, July 20, 2017, is supposedly the 52nd birthday of Chris Cornell.
I decided to watch his last performance at Detroit, Michigan.
But the day has not ended and newsflash popping on my timeline that Chester also passed away today!

This is ridiculous!

Flashbacks keep coming. All related to Linkin Park and Chester Bennington.
This blog was in a way inspired by their song, "Somewhere I belong".

I used it before as an inspiration to get my blog started because at that time I was also lost, depressed and uninspired due to the lost of my grandfather. It was the first in the family to have somebody gone for good and I had regrets of not spending my Christmas with him, if only I knew it was his last.
I know that somewhere I belong that I need to heal to move on cause I will never forget what had happened. As I write this, it brings back the heartache of choosing what I wanted, my temporary happiness instead of my priority which is my family.

I was in college at that time that's why I believed there would be more wonderful things in stored for me instead of dwelling on the past that I cannot correct or change any more.

But there was no one to turn too, no time to be cheesy and emotional.
Every thing was fast-phased.

Viola! my companion during research and thesis days, Blogspot.com :)
This was the era of me exposing myself to Information Technology and the World Wide Web!

Fast-forward to 2017, this song, the feeling and the situation is still the same.
Every lyric and words of the song is alive today, at least for me. I feel like bursting in my seat!
Bursting into tears and screams! (But I can't, I still in the office. That would be scandalous!)

Again, I turn to you my good old friendly Blogspot. You and me, for the longest time.
Can you hear my scream? My deep, heavy breathing?
What is happening people!?!

For all this fucked-up Millennial craze going on nowadays, are we leaving this legacy GenXers?!?
I definitely do not want to be remembered as the suicidal generation!

With all those talents, abilities and influence, this is not the time to lose hope and to be exhausted with life!

You may not be a role model or ideal human being but at least you never ever give up with all these shit going on around you and around us.

There are more things to be thankful for and although every thing is messed up with the society and government, we still have our family and friends who truly makes our backbone to stand up and together we are stronger, the more we are the better we can fight the every day demons of our lives.

Even though our ammo is just pen and paper or computer system and Internet connection (A stable and fast one, of course) our presence will be felt, we can still be united wherever we are in this world, whichever timezone it may be.

This situation should be taken seriously cause not only popular people undergo it but more likely common people like we do. Our support system with depression and anxiety should be visible and felt through actions not just in words.

Simply being with the person who experience it, walking him or her through on their way out of this sick cycle, I believe is the first step in any person's enlightenment.

Talk sensibly! Shove all your "green-joke" up the trash bin's mouth and for once be matured on how you see things in this world. And maybe, hopefully, it would brighten someone's day or my day at least!

Never stop seeking on how to heal yourself so in return you can also bring healing and peace to others.

And maybe, every thing will follow.
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My response to a Youtube post about Chester's interview calling for help:

To Veronika Císarová:
That's true... sadly, he was in the world too fast, too busy making money and things like these are not gonna generate money. there could be a million reasons why things happen at this day and time. But we will also be blind on a situation like this cause it is not being taken seriously. He was very vocal about it but sorry this was not in the cards, move on against your will. How much more people who keep it only inside. You're like a balloon full of helium exploding any time soon. We have to strive hard in finding time to spend it with our loved ones. I believe it is the first step to a stronger well being.

#PrayingForChesterBennington #PrayerForPeopleWhoFeelAlone #VirtualHugsForTheMeantime